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01 Jan 2008, 10:55 am / Here Comes The Sun
I've woke up the last few days with visions of sugar plums dancing in my brain while the hounds of hell tip at my feet. Basically a vision to extend my world domination while reality would try and preclude my attempts at salvaging this interesting, yet I must admit, a financial failure of a life so far. A wiz of the coin I am not and guitar playing son of a bitch is what is and I'm finding out more about me after my over indulgence created an epiphany that has me redirected. Now having said that, do I have the balls to follow thru with it? Do I have the self discipline to stay the course and not revert back to what I have been doing these oh so many years? Cuz we all know what we need to do to make things better, but we are comfortable in our malaise and Lord knows we want o be comfortable. .....and comfortable NOW!!!! I think that is the problem these kids today are going through. I have a youngest child that is so bright and such a baseball player it would scare most people to death. He is cute and charming and witty but as you can tell, they do not grade on cute, charming and witty. The teachers let him get by when he was younger and now he is really good at getting by but adult life catches up and the grades you need to graduate are hard to come by and it gets down to dirty, ugly, torturous work. There are extenuating circumstances that have really made it hard for him but the hard work part has evaded him and I myself lay as guilty as him for not doing the hard work to get what you can get out of this life....I am more guilty for my love of drink. I thought a music career was to get as high as possible for as long as possible and fuck as many women as possible and the music thing would fall right into place. Oh I was writing and performing but I was clever and all that so I skated for years I could've been networking, getting professional...but I didn't and here I am.So what do you do?? Been here before, right? "Been down this road so much it echoes when I talk...... I find no comfort in this familiarity..." One thing you can never do is....GIVE UP!! That is not an option. You keep working it until something pops or at least you are doing something you enjoy or you're with someone you enjoy and ...this could be a miracle...they enjoy you too. My boy will be fine. It's going to grind a little. He has too things that really help, talent and love. Something will pop.My vision that I have come up with, and waking with for the pass two days...no not that...this....I want to play colleges. I will start out with small colleges to hone this whole concept.....it is not just a show it is a show.....a writing workshop for song writers from the college and surrounding areas. The show would be first so people could get to know me and my work and what I do. I may start out with an after the show Q & A as opposed to the T & A of the past....but I digress..The workshop would not be for the..I WANT TO BE ON THE CHARTS type of person....it would be more about self expression..exploring the creative process for an individual that may never want to play a gig but writes and wants to step into a room with other people that love to write and love music and not a critique, a boost. I will offer critiques if people want....and sure there will be nominal fees for everything but access is more important and expression of a true spirit is the goal.....and world domination....So step one...a show....a workshop.....then I must come back to check on the progress and keep the communal connection with.....a song writers showcase with the kids from the previous visit.....I can either let them have their own show...and then I can perform later in the evening and acknowledge them or finish off the night with doing a longer set after they are done but giving them their own stage would be better.There are song writer groups, there are people that go around doing showcases so another part would be to show them ways to do this on their own or organizations they might want to belong to but I know there is talent everywhere and it is crying to get out while we have American Idol and all those..get to the top in one leap type of shit that is out there and like pro sports, a small percentage actually makes it to the proverbial top but there are a millions that love the game, play the game, love the music, play the music that don't aspire to be #1 or get into the business part of all the crap that goes on but they are creative, wonderful people with a story to tell and if the chance come to them, they may be more comfortable pushing the envelope and step thru the looking glass and see where the adventure goes....and really, isn't that what we're all doing? So lets embrace a new calendar year with its challenges and opportunities, take the bull by the horns ( almost said his horn :) and let’s see what we can do with this ride thru Wonderland. Will you fall back on old ways that went no where? Will you hang with people that love you and believe you are the sunshine or will you fall back on the sofa and pop open another bag of chips and fall prey to the TV set which now costs $3000 and takes up a whole wall.....why?Whatever you do...NEVER GIVE UP.....NEVER QUIT TRYING....never quit loving...yourself and others.....one more thing....take a bath once in a while..for cryin out loud!!Peace
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